Ah at last, I've got something positive to say..!
I've been feeling a LOT better the last two days than I have in months... I've absolutely no idea why,
but I don't think about suicide every other 5 minutes anymore, I even feel less anxious, but most of all
I feel so grateful for not feeling as if I can't go on anymore!
It's such a relief to be able to just feel ok.
I'm not saying I'm dancing about the livingroom, and I still can't be bothered doing anything or seeing anyone,
but inside I just feel a thousand times better than I have in ages.
As if I've got hope again. That things are gonna be ok one day.
I'm still self-harming too, but more out of habit rather than the viciousness I was doing it with before, it's
more half-hearted, maybe I'll even stop doing that in a few days time..
Its ok to be alive, and I didn't think I'd see a day when I'd be saying that again...
Sorry too people who are struggling, I don't mean to rub it in, and my thoughts are with you, just don't give up.
Here's living proof that things can get better again, even when you think they never will..
If I could give everybody that's struggling a bit of what i'm feeling just now, I would!!!
Love, holly xx