It's nice to have someone to talk too

[vik191]

Thankyou for the messages it's nice to know am not alone, I have been trying to cope for three years with my depression and I feel it's not getting any better. My partner thinks the answer is to keep taking my pills and I will get better but I feel my depression is part of who I am now

[Golfer15]

I know exactly how you feel. I have been on anti depressants for nearly three years and my wife thinks that is the answer to my depression. She just tells me not to be silly if I say Im still depressed. It is good to know there are people here who understand.

[vik191 in reply to Golfer15]

My partner thinks am silly as he feels I have nothing to be depressed about , I try and talk to him but he won't talk to me about it . He thinks it will all just go away

[Golfer15 in reply to vik191]

Mine too. She says I have everything so whats to be depressed about. Glad you understand.

[Gambit62]

Darkness

I am not the darkness

But it is a part of me

The meaning

Of the meaningless

But still I cling to life

The hope

That time might heal

The expectation

That time will disappoint

I am not the pain

But it is a part of me

It is easier to smile

On the outside

Dissemble the sadness

Than fail to meet

The hopes of others

That they will succeed

In making the darkness

Depart

I am not the darkness

But it is a part of me.

[mayalida in reply to Gambit62]

beautiful

[redroseart]

hello I have been severely depressed for 2 years. I am beginning to feel a bit better.

[vik191 in reply to redroseart]

What have you been doing to help you because I will try anything to make the darkness go away even for a day

[Gambit62 in reply to vik191]

Things I do:

a) write poetry - get it out of my head

b) do something - anything - just to keep some routines going

[some research shows that if you are depressed then action can lead to motivation]

c) mindfulness meditation - helps me separate the thoughts from me a bit more.

[vik191 in reply to Gambit62]

The only thing I find that helps me a bit is putting my earphones in listen to music and block the world out but I may try writing my feelings down

[Gambit62 in reply to vik191]

I find poetry helps me more than prose because a)sometimes words are so difficult and only one or two will come out and b) it's like painting a picture rather than telling a story with poetry.

Music can be very therapeutic.

[redroseart in reply to vik191]

hi vik I kept thinking about my son and his lovely girlfriend and my 2 year old granddaughter. they say you come out of depression a stronger person not so sure but I am sure you will get better give yourself lots of time and be kind to yourself. love soniaxxx

[vik191 in reply to redroseart]

On my really dark daysI think about my family it is the only thing that keeps be going but I am scared when that isn't enough

[redroseart in reply to vik191]

hello vik depression makes you scared but you are stronger than you think. I think you have survived this long I am sure you can go on.

[mayalida in reply to redroseart]

I am glad you are feeling better, xxx

[mayalida in reply to redroseart]

this is great news

[Jeffju]

My psychologist told me to write a list of achievements I had made in the last 20 years !!!! It took a while but then I realised just what I had done as opposed to looking at the negative which is what we are SO GOOD at doing. He also suggested that I keep a daily diary, again to see achievements plus not so good days, and I find this has helped me too. People who tells us to 'cheer up' or 'not be silly' when we are depressed really do not understand just how desperate the feeling is. Don't they realise that if we could just ' snap out of it' we would and would like nothing better!!!! WE all know the feeling on here and this site is just so wonderful with all tyhe people so willing to support and help you along. One day at a time, just one day at a time. xx

[duncan1971]

hope you feel better so you can manage your depression and start to enjoy things you like to do it will be hard some days there are alot of people with depression and the one thing I've struggled with is admiring i have a illness but day by day im getting there anyway stay safe

[missrat]

Gambit - that poem is excellent. Strangely, few or any of my poems are about depression.

It's good that we can be here and meet people with different interests etc, - though sharing this horrible condition. Sorry if I spend too long talking about rats!

[redroseart]

hello everyone thanks for all your kind replies. I have had a lot of dark days but kept thinking about my son and his girlfriend and little granddaughter kept me going.