Hi gang

[sheffield1978]

Just to let everyone know that it has finally happened I was sectioned in Friday after a near fatal overdose last weekend but it makes me smile that I am still allowed to harm myself I have appealed and hope to here something this week

[Suzie40]

So are you in hospital now? X

[sheffield1978 in reply to Suzie40]

Yes I spent 9 days in the main hospital and was sectioned on Thursday stupid thing is I had the chance to come voluntary didn't really think they would section me its awful I hate it

[Holly101]

Crazy isn't it, they just let ye go home to cut yourself to ribbons or go and try again..

Did you get my post on the other page?

I'm just so glad you're ok

Lotsa love, Holly Xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Holly101]

Yes and I think I replied to that one too my brain is still a little fuzzy from the od . I'm just hoping that my appeal works I can't take been stuck in here for months on end its just making everything seem so much worse too many peoplen

[Hidden]

Hello BOB here

When I attempted, they give me a chat contacted the crisis team and said there is a four hour wait for a ambulance, I had no money so I had to walk home, some 4 miles. Ironically it was Christmas and it was snowing,

Did not want to wait for the NHS

All the best

BOB

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

I think its because this is the second time in a month and it was nearly fatal I could slap the policeman that kept waking me up I have had that before where they have just passed me a number hope or better now tho x

[emms]

My appeal worked, only lasted for 6 weeks in the end good luck

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

Hey you

Are u OK I know its hard but you really need to call someone and chat to them do you want my number I am willing to have a chat with you if u think it would help

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

its ok, you have lots of your own issues to sort, but thank you xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

I am OK when my phone is charged I am going to put u my number on even if you only text me give me something to do in this awful place x

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

07824157465 xx

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

ok thanks x

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

Hey u OK how's the head x

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

head is still very sore, but its not a nice pain like when you cut yourself, it makes me feel sick constantly and everything much harder. I am going to try and contact GP tomorrow, but dont know if I will be able again. How are you

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

If your not feeling good maybe you should go to a+e u could have done some damage I know what you mean about the drs I have done that many a time its too hard would it help if you passed me the number and I called them for you I'm not having a very good note still on 12 1

[Hidden]

I am very glad you are still with us sheffield. I bless the policeman who kept waking you up. I, and I am very sure, everyone else here would be devastated to lose you. You are so young with all your life ahead of you. It really hurts that you want to die so much. Lots of hugs ((((((((((sheffield))))))))

Bev xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

Thank u my sister went to the station the other day to thank him all I want to do us hit him to be honest he really didn't have the right who is he to say I have to carry on living this miserable life sorry not having a very good night tonite xxxxx

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi honey how are you today?

I hope you're felling just a tiny wee bit better..

We're all here for you if you need us, you know that!!

Lots of love, Holly Xxx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Holly101]

Hi holly

I feel awful today self harmed quite badly last note so physically I am totally drained they had a meeting about methis morning and ddiscussed meds after a final blood test on Wednesday they will be starting meds although this will not include antidepressants as I'm not depressed apparently I went in the bath this morning and it wasn't checked before I went in someone had left razors I told my friend when she came she played hell up in the office but they said I was hallucinating its great they haven't got a clue really what they are doing with me so I don't were why I can't be home. Anyway how are you hope you are managing OK

Sarah xx

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

yes better off at home, thats how I felt

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

I was thinking of you are u OK and I know I'm not safe to be at home the mess I made of myself last night and I'm on 15 minute observation

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

yes I used to be on constant obs, hated it, even in the toilet - I could hardly ever go....Ive been cutting my arms and legs a lot but nothing serious, i have not cut them deep

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

I am on 1 2 1 today is driving me to distraction can't even have a pee in peace

[Holly101 in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi Sarah,sorry to hear you're still feeling so bad.. I thought you were home!!

I must not have read your post right last night sorry.

That's just madness how you're able to selfharm so badly in the place you're in and then they're telling you you're hallucinating!!

What about your cuts,are you imagining them as well!

I'm really sorry you're having such a hard time, I hope they'll be able to help

you in some way and put you on the right medication..

Sometimes antidepressants aren't the best solution anyway, I've been on them for years, and they're doing nothing for me, I still self-harm, and I've still attempted suicide a couple of times since I've been on them.

And i'm still not dancing with joy either

I hope they decide what the best thing to do for you is tomorrow so you'll be a step closer to getting out of there..

At the moment they've probably got to keep you in for your own safety, in case you try to hurt yourself again.. And I mean kill yourself, coz it seems hurting yourself is quite easy in there anyway!

Good luck Sarah,thinking of you,

Love and big hug,

Holly xxx

[vienna]

I have been down that road but thankfully never sectioned. My doctor was fab. But she as left now , i just pray new dr will help me by contacting me at home to check i am ok gl sheffield xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to vienna]

I thought I could rely on my gp but she didn't even turn up to the meeting where I was sectioned I think if she had this wouldn't have happened hope your feeling better now tho xxxxx

[Jeffju]

Well, I for one am glad that you are still with us. A close friend of mine lost her son to suicide and it devastated her and her family. Please don't do that to yours. I hope that you can get the help that you need . Life is worth living.... it's just very hard to see that at times.I hope that you can get better and make a life for yourself.{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}. xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Jeffju]

I know what suicide does to families my cousin committed suicide 3 years ago my family couldn't care less about me so I don't have to consider their feelings by having me here all they are doing is delaying th e inevitable

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

yes I feel like that too, they would be better off without me

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

My family would know nothing about it everyone knows when I do die they are the last people I want contacting

[Hidden]

Hi

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad about still being here but am glad you are! Have a big hug from me. Life can be really difficult but it can also be good- I hope you find some good things happen in your life that make you feel it is worth living however awful the other things are. Suexx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

Hi sue

It just seems never ending hope u are feeling a little better today xxxxx

[Hidden in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi, yes, sometimes I know exactly what you mean... Suexx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

U sound really down sue are u OK x

[Hidden in reply to sheffield1978]

Hi, yes I am ok thanks, just feeling a bit low at times but ok. How are you now? I hope you are feeling a bit better. I'm off to watch Holby City but will be back on tomorrow. Suexx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Hidden]

Not having a very good day today I'm on 1 2 1 can't even go to the toilet glad your OK

[emms in reply to sheffield1978]

sorry about this, but can I ask what you overdosed on?

[sheffield1978 in reply to emms]

I'm sure u can understand when I say this but why do you want to know x

[Suzie40]

Sorry I've not been able to reply today. You are in my thoughts tonight xx

[sheffield1978 in reply to Suzie40]

Hey u OK x

[Suzie40 in reply to sheffield1978]

Im good thanks. More importantly, how are you? X

[sheffield1978 in reply to Suzie40]

Not really don't want to be here no more but I'm glad or ok