30 years ago when I was at college I was the victim of some rather unpleasant bullying. The lad involved, B, was rusticated for a year (banned from university premises) - he was friend and business partner to a lad in my college A who was one of the few people in the college that I didn't really have anything to do with - because our paths never crossed. Anyway they were business partners and a few days ago there was an article (as happens from time to time) in the press about A's businesses ... and I thought back to what had happened and couldn't recall the name of his friend B and then yesterday there was an article about B and his businesses. I'm not reliving any of what happened - but I do feel quite affected - can feel the tears at the back of the eyes and the tightness of breath.
Sort of hope that may be the incident at college was something they both learnt from and made them better people to work with and neither of them are bullies now.
Think I'm just going to have to take it easy for a while until all the emotional memories die back down again - have a couple of meditations to help.
Read recently that depressed people tend to have very generalised memories - really don't recall the incident(s) - do recall one just after B's rustication had finished ... and everyone around him trying to rein him back but even that memory is very vague.
Don't think it helps that my boyfriend is away next week and yesterday was the last time I'm going to see him until he gets back.
Never mind - have a Beethoven symphony playing in the background and that is quite beautiful.