I'm feeling low today. I sorted through my wardrobe and quite enjoyed doing it but it felt mindless, a way of passing time, so I also felt a bit despondent. Then my husband came in and interrupted and I felt irritable, then he started apologising completely unnecessarily when he hadn't done anything wrong and that's like a red rag to a bull to me nowadays, and so we had a asset to, not a row but just an irritated exchange and as a result I felt close to tears. Now I'm sitting here feeling incredibly low.
For the past few days I haven't felt bothered about eating anything and realise when it's late as it is now (3pm) that I haven't eaten all day and have hardly drunk anything. I drop into total despair and hopelessness. I seem so dependant upon nice things happening to pick my mood up, unable to do that for myself. I find that frustrating even though I understand how it relates to my past.