I know I've been going through a very bad patch recently, made worse by losing seven of my pet rats and a hamster, plus financial worries, on top of my pain problems etc.
However, I realise that for a year I've been finding it harder to get involved with the things I used to find interesting - photography and digital imaging, internet forums and even my little animals - recently I haven't even written any poems.
I have my annual digital imaging course coming up and am not even looking forward to that. Part of it is because we are at a different place - and Sunbury Court used to be really special. I can't even remember what our competition projects are.
I know the steroids are contributing to this, but I need them for my polymyalgia rheumatica, and don't fancy the other medications which could be used alongside them.
I wish bupropion was available for depression over here, as it is in the States, as that works on the dopamine system. I might ask about that when my CMHT appointment comes - if it does!