Been doing so well, feeling lighter and brighter. Finally felt some hope. Then bang, got knocked sideways - found myself watching this old film by Antonioni (The Red Desert) and I'm back in the old place, feeling bleak and desolate. I had no idea what the film was about when I was invited to watch it with friends and if I'd known I'd have declined politely, because I know I'm still vulnerable. It's about a woman with mental health problems and she's told there's no hope, she'll never be better etc and it's the most depressing thing I've ever seen. So I thought I'd post a warning about it, even though it's unlikely that most people will come across it. Basically DO NOT COME NEAR THIS FILM UNLESS YOU ARE CONFIDENT OF YOUR STATE OF MIND.
And it's back to the drawing board for me.