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There's some things I've never ever said to anyone, but I feel like I need to let it out. When my parents divorced I'd have a lot of panic attacks, I'd have sleep paralysis all the time, I'd cry myself to sleep every night because going back and fourth took its toll on me, I'd even wet my bed up until I was 12 and doctors confirmed it's due to not being able to adapt to just one home, I started losing weight and eating less too, I lost a lot of friends and the ones I had left made my life hell. I became friends with the kids I couldn't stand and all of a sudden I went from this confident kid to this constantly bossed around kid. I went to a school that had elementary, middle, and high school kids all in one building, because at the time it wasn't that big of a school. My friends and I loved the older kids and we would randomly run up to a few and just hug them. So there was this girl that we always loved hugging and this one time we ran up to her while she was talking to a guy(they were fourth year at the time) and he was looking at me weird. At the time I didn't know what it was, but he made me feel extremely uncomfortable. He was hideous and I am not one to judge someone else's looks, but you'll understand once I get to the point. Back then the highschoolers looked way older than they were and the way he’d look at me gave me the creeps. Then there was this one time where he randomly told the person next to him that I’m just so beautiful, also keep in mind that I’m only second grade at the time. Then I'll never forget when he was talking to the girl we'd hug and he literary looked at me and said "I'll marry this girl". Anyone hearing that would've laughed and said it's a joke, but to me it wasn't. For the rest of the day I’d felt sick and disgusting. People would probably think I'm over reacting, but the way he said it wouldn't have made you think so. Even the girl next to him was like "Oh stop it" cause it was such a weird thing to say. Then a few days later I'm in the cafeteria and I would constantly be looking out for where he is because he would literary look for me and right then when I was buying food he was telling his friends about me. He was trying to find me so he could point at me. I remember going upstairs to the conference room and being hysterical in front of the school administrator. I couldn’t even explain what made me cry so much, all I kept saying is that I want my mom to come and get me. I remember I didn't tell anyone because I was so afraid to mention it. Night after night I'd literary dream of him coming in my room and saying all these inappropriate things. I felt so uncomfortable, all of a sudden my problems with my friends seemed completely irrelevant. I hated going to school, but thank god he graduated that year. I'm not saying I'm some traumatized kid, I mean there are far worse case scenario, but I just wanted to be heard.

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Hello Koliadados

Can you please confirm your age? as I may be able to refer you to a more appropriate forum.

Many thanks

Chloe

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I am 16

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chloe40 in reply to Koliadados

Here we are Koliadados

healthunlocked.com/youngadu...

Chloe

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So basically I should just repost my post on there?

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Yes please Koliadados :-)

Chloe

Hello Koliadados,

There is a new forum opening next week here on Health Unlocked for youngsters 16 and over called 'Young Adults Stress Support,' please join us on healthunlocked.com/youngadults stresssupport

Lottie

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