Hi everyone. Some of you know me but thought I'd introduce myself. I'm Kerry and I'm 28 - my tinnitus started in Feb 2015 after a period of extreme stress and some loud noise although I'm not actually sure which started it off. Who knows?! Anyways as some of you know I was in absolute despair when I found this forum. I had to quit my teaching course, couldn't eat sleep or function and thought very hard about ending it all. I was put on a number of meds to help with anxiety and sleep and in the end stuck with mirtazapine which I no longer take.
This group and the regulars within it were my lifeline at the lowest point of my life. I saw no way out and didn't want to be here anymore. I had/have both low pitch and high pitch tinnitus in my ears and head. I didn't see how I was ever going to habituate and live with this. But you know what - I did!
After about 4 months and going through the whole anxiety worry anger depressed cycle I finally gave up fighting. I saw an amazing tinnitus counsellor at my local hospital - on my first appointment I just sobbed and told her I didn't want to be here anymore - at this point I'd stopped doing anything as I was so scared it would get worse. I couldn't even bare the sound of my daughters voice. But slowly with help I started doing everything I used to do again (minus nightclubs!!) and gradually got my life back. My tinnitus is still there and the low drone really gets my back up some days but I just think - I don't have to listen to this and mask the crap out of it for a while lol. I sleep with a fan on still after two years and white noise is my best friend!
Please don't let tinnitus stop you living. Don't give it that power. Don't even give it a second thought. Habituation does happen - our brains are very clever. Yes there will be bad days but don't let it knock you down for too long.
Here's what I've done whilst I've had tinnitus...
Had another baby!
Bought a house!
Been on holiday!
Been to the cinema!
Been to the pub!
Got a new job!
Continued with running and exercise!
I guess I just want to say to anyone starting out on this journey; it will get better and use this site for support whenever you need it. There are some amazing people on here!
Ps; for those who know me - I had a little girl called Molly in November ☺