Disappointed in myself today

[Cookie2217]

Well I did it again I overslept due to having insomnia and I was supposed to be at an in-person interview at 9:00 a.m. and woke up at 8:20 a.m. due to not going to bed until 5:00 a.m. I was hoping that this interview would lead to an at home opportunity to work remotely from home I did call and cancel and let them know that I had an emergency cuz I didn't want to tell them that I simply overslept and asked if I could reschedule in about 2 weeks to allow me to take some time off of my current part-time job in order to go to my second interview spot. Who knows maybe this is God's way of telling me that that job wasn't right for me but I'm disappointed because I set my alarm Even put my interview close out ahead of time In order to be completely ready for this morning and look what happened. I'm usually a lot more responsible than this so I'm disappointed and mad at myself for not getting a good night's rest beforehand.

[Lilypad03]

I have found myself there also before. Don't beat yourself up and give yourself some grace. Like you said this could be a blessing in disguise. I hope today is a much better day. 🫂

[Cookie2217 in reply to Lilypad03]

Thank you!

[Vilanel]

Cookie, have you thought about trying ECT, Electric Shock therapy. They put you to sleep during ECT and it has been extremely helpful for resistant depression. It’s very common and much more controlled than years past. Another option, Ketamine, where a psychiatrist administers a controlled dose and watches while doing it. There are probably other such treatments for resistant depression, google and see what you can find.

[Cookie2217 in reply to Vilanel]

I've thought about ECT and Ketamine therapy too. Both scare me a bit. I think ECT is a bit invasive my aunt went through electo shock therapy and it made her a zombie. Ketamine is actually a street drug named Special K and I believe it's a horse tranquilizer too so I'm not too keen on that one either. I have told my doctor I want to switch to Prozac and I'm beginning on it tomorrow so hopefully because it's one of the oldest medications for depression it will help me and I will have no side effects from it. My doctor is going to start me on 20 mg for the first 2 weeks and see how I feel and then he can up it to 40 mg he said if needed both with an Abilify booster of 10 mg. I'm hoping that all of this works out for me as I'm tired of being depressed but I have been great for about a week and a half no sleeping except for going to bed at night and making it to work each and every day too. I'm laughing a lot with my husband and spending a lot of time with him which is nice. Thank you for all of your advice I appreciate you caring. Wishing you peace and well-being.