I truly hope they survive the attacks of the swans😭.But Chicks yey 😁.
There will be loads soon😊
They're at my back door. Fed them seed. As you can tell I'm giddy with excitement lol
Has it got rid of the pain? No but what a distraction.
Hugs sweeties 😁😁😁😊😊😊❤❤❤😂🤗🤗
How lovely we all need something too make us smile 😃for me my little grandboys come back off holiday Saturday so hoping too see them x
Hi sweetie 😀,I know how much you love seeing ur Grandboys not long to go now ❤❤❤ 🤗🤗🤗😃😆😇🙏
I'm not allowed pets so I've made friends with the wildlife lol. Especially the injured ones through winter. They're very noisy but they had a bad year last year and need a help in hand.
I don't drink 🍸 garden anymore or smoke 🚬 so why shouldn't I buy seed for them?😆😉.
My daughter gets money every month from me.
And now I rarely buy from Amazon I've bought a new dryer 😆
Have a great time with ur Grandboys hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Dawn
Your allowed too have treats and so lovely you’re looking out for them❤️theve not done their Easter hunt treat s yet so I’ve too hide them up and write down where I’ve hid them in the lounge as il forget ha ha🤣it’s supposed to be 18degrees here today but I’m still chilly , I cannot garden for very long but the seeds and plug plants etc are coming up in the Conservatory 😁x
How wonderful ❤🤗 that you have seedlings on the go yey 😁.I'm sure the Grandlings will love that. It hilarious you need a map lol. I have post it's in the kitchen to remind me where cups and plates are lol. I rarely go in the kitchen. Jon does all the cleaning and cooking.
Just fed the parents of the chicks a
Can't wait till you tell me how it went😆🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😋Dawn
One of my best friends is called Jon he is a very funny kindest man I know and he is also married too my best friend . Please send Jon my way ha ha as my hubbie dosent cook 😉 he could learn he chooses not too. He has been out and pulled some weeds out of the border in exchange for a crumble and homemade custard 😃I am in Suffolk what part of the Country are you xx
Standlake in Oxford UK.Sounds like you both have it sussed lol.
Hmmmm crumble.
We're having home made kebabs for tea yum.
He moans about always being on the go but won't stay still unless doing his day job 🙄🙄🙄😂😂😂.
It'll be a messy tea but lots of salad.
I'm so tired and I'm pain but Js working and cooking so it's only right I taste test😂😂😂😋
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🤗
You make me laugh 😃we are having Chicken casserole , roasties, stuffing gravy pud, I keep doing bits then stopping , he managed too get the cushions down from the loft and put on outside wicker garden furniture , we have a roof we can shut when it rains. So I’ve like a Courtyard I suppose from the kitchen diner. When I actually do the pots baskets one day il post a pic x
Oh 😋yum!Sounds lovely where you live🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗
It's 19 in the living room and 32 in the conservatory🤔😯. I'm still cold but Jon's hot. He's also my best friend and is also extremely kind. Suffolk is beautiful. Or at least was when Jon used to take me out for a drive all over. Like 20 years ago lol. Hugs sweetie Dawn
That's wonderful! I used to love seeing goslings, ducklings and cygnets when I used to visit a country park not far from here. Must go again soon.
Sounds lovely! Chicks are so cute!
One of the things that prompted us to buy our house when I moved from my job was the view out of the back garden over fields and then forest. Now I'm being medically retired for ill health I am really grateful that that is my view of nature because it is going to be so healing
How lovely! Are they yours?
Hi sweetie 😀🤗🤗🤗.They're wild but come straight to our Connie door every year😂😍🤗🤗🤗. They stay until chicks can fly with them. Then it's all quiet again lol.
How have you been sweetie?
It's a beautiful day but I'm freezing with electric blanket on 🤗🤗🤗
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, That's lovely that they come to you every year and that they basically take care of themselves. Hopefully, it's a sign of better weather for you. It's good to hear from you, though I am sorry you are so cold that you have to have an electric blanket. It's warming up here - sometimes too hot when in the car. I brought my partner home from hospital after 3 weeks on Wedneday but he clearly wasn't ready and I had to turn round and take him back on arrival. He was freezing cold and I had to drive with the windows up when I was baking hot in a sweater. I've just been reading through all the literature. They didn't give me a chance to prepare for him coming home. The whole thing was a fiasco. I am going to court on Thursday and am hoping he doesn't come home before then because two types of stress will not be good for me. If only they had convalescent homes these days! At least I can tell him he can't come because I can't guarantee to get him home in time for the community nurse to give him an injection. So, if you can imagine how I feel - that's it. This too shall pass.
Hugs, Sweetie 😟😟🥺😊
Oh sweetie😟🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Has it really been 3 weeks ?
I've been so worried about you. So I'm happy to hear from you.
How are you doing Fibromyalgia wise cos with all the mega stress you must be exhausted to say the least. 0-10 where are you sweetie ?
I hope you've been able to look after yourself.
Jon thinks it's like a Scottish summers day here today. I want to move to Scotland. J just needs to find a job up there. He's looking.
I live at Standlake in Oxford. Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Omg they have a nerve taking you to court !!!🤗Good luck with that !!!🤗🤗🤗🤗
What do you think will happen sweetie ? Hugs 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, Don't worry about me; tough as old boots! 😆Fibromyalgia doesn't bother me but my compression fractures do. My partner put me through it at the hospital bending down all the time to dress him (waste of time) and then we got home and he had me running backwards and forwards from the kitchen to the car - the milk was off and I had to give him dextrose and then shortbread biscuits - very sugary. Then the nurse phoned and said we had to go right back to the hospital 25 miles away. So I did 3 hours driving that day. I do get exhausted (I was that day) but it may be due to the blood cancer, or just the fact that when you have a back injury, everything you do takes more effort and gives more pain. At home I have to sit down every few minutes; this is getting better, but when I'm not at home I'm expected to do everything like a well person - with two sticks! LOL. I'm in East Anglia close to Suffolk.
Regarding court, we may not have aleg to stand on; tomorrow I have to phone CAB to let them know Trading Standards haven't been in touch. CAB have really let me down this time, transferring me to another group of town mid-case. If Trading Standards advise me not to go to court, we'll just pay the man his money and withdraw. At least no costs (hopefully). It's a case of a money-grabbing company who operate with poor ethics. My fault for being afraid of John and his fault for not seeing the light when he signed himself away.☹️He wants to give up but I've put a lot of hard work into the defence and he's likely to forget about the case. He seems more set on bad-mouthing me to hospital staff and asking if I've told his daughters where he is. I'm very sad to say that they are not interested. Asked him why he wants this and he says it'll look bad for me if he dies in there. Horrible, horrible. Roll on Monday and I can speak to someone for advice. Yeah, mega stress. It's so good I don't get migraines anymore.
Omg what a monster.I'm sorry for you !!!! Where's your support ?
What reason did he go to hospital ?
If I'm too nosy tell me to sod off😉
It's probably easier to pay but totally out of order😒.
I'm really sorry but my legs are killing me and I need to go to bed. I need to roll around crying 😢 in private I'm sure you understand sweetie hugs🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😢🤗🤗🤗🤗Dawn xxxx
Have a healing rest, Dawn, and I'll try and answer you tomorrow. You may have the wrong end of the stick; on the other hand you might have got the picture. 🤗🤗
Morning sweetie 🤗🤗🤗,I've named the chick Andrea❤😉😊🤗🤗🤗🤗
It's so windy and rainy here I'm worried about my birds 🐦.
I'm shattered. Hope you slept ok sweetie 🤗
I was up n down like a yoyo.
Feel so weak and depressed. Can't wait till this eases.
I don't want to open the curtains but Jon always insists grrr. Pain wise I've dropped to a 6 🙏😃😀🙂.
Holy moly it's absolutely tossing it down.
What is ur weather?
Just know I'm thinking about you and hope you get the advice you need and a decent ☕.
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, Thanks for the hugs. I haven't got anywhere with the 2-3 hours I've spent on the phone today. It's very blustery outside, though the rain has stopped and we have beautiful blue skies with some clouds. I slept well but I'm feeling highly anxious, having been passed from pillar to post all morning. I got a letter from Carers1st, which is Essex based and I phoned them but they just wanted to check that I was still a carer and not interested in helping with getting me to court on Thursday. Finally, CAB has sent me some long emails that might be helpful but here I just ploughing through and deleting silly emails and answering this one. I tried to ring the Court to let them know that John was in hospital but I can't get through. At least I have all the evidence in duplicate with pages numbered, and think it's best if I just rock up on Thursday and say I'm representing him; they might not allow it, and they might not allow it because they haven't got his whole name on the claim document, or they might throw it out because they should have checked if we were on the TPS before they cold-called (which they admit, though they say they were given a lead) I think the lead is probably a suckers list. So there's no doubt we owe what was agreed but the result was fraudulently achieved and we were told we couldn't do it ourselves. Well - who knows?
I haven't heard from the hospital, although a call came through that I was unable to answer because I was in the process of making an outgoing call. So here I am in limbo between my recliner and the toilet 🚽🚽!
I'm sorry - how are you today? Are your legs less painful?
Sweetie❤️❤️
Are you managing to sleep with all this stresss sweetie?The sooner the situation is over for you the better.
Fingers crossed and good luck being John's representative. I think you'll manage no problem.
Hugs sweetie🤗🤗🤗🤗❤😁😃😊🤗🤗🤗🤗
We've had a few power cuts this afternoon🙄
I can barely walk today again.
My new carer starts tomorrow🤗
I can't concentrate. I'm so tired I'm bored.! I rarely get bored. What to do !?
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, Most of the time I'm managing to sleep, thanks to Pregabalin but my stress level today has been off the scale!
I was thinking about you just now when I saw the news about this storm. I hope you are ok and the power cuts didn't last too long. Surprisingly, we have had none here but I had to rescue our rubbish bin from the middle of the road. I keep turning the heat on and off as it's very cold. This turn in the weather has been a surprise to me.
I'm sorry you're not able to walk again; at least you will be less bored tomorrow when you welcome your new carer. I hope they are everything you hope for. I'm just making my phone call list for tomorrow and watchinng Corrie. Its good to see other people's problems even if they are fictional.
What to do when bored? If you can't watch something good on TV go to bed!🤗🤗🤗🤗
I huff and puff when bored and can't concentrate.I watch the news closely and you tube. Comedy or funny animals.
I'm sorry ur so stressed sweetie🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤🤗
I'm hoping ur problems with the money grabbers will be over.
you need a carer for your self sweetie!🤗
The geese are kicking off lol.
I'm a bit nervous about flashing me bits to another stranger😂😐
And change.
Just hope I don't fart 😂😂😂😂😂😆😊😇😇😇🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗
The computer just decided to wipe everything I just wrote! Grrrr. After my day of high anxety yesterday, I stayed up to watch a Stephen King movie that was really disturbing, but still slept quite well, despite a power cut in the middle of the night.
So today I am so far less stressed, and plan to straighten up my bedroom. I had bought a lot of sweaters over the past few weeks and I can't reach my chest of drawers for storage in front of them, so that's my task for today. I will try not to bend down too much.
I had never considered that I needed a carer because I care for myself but when I find I'm in a position of having to care for John, and disregard my own needs entirely, that's when I realise I need someone - more of a handy-person most of the time, but. What is that? Is that a carer for me or a carer for John? Either way, it's not free and it's not going to be available at random times, which is what we need. I've just read the discharge letter and it states that John was admitted to the hospital with progressive confusion and aggressive behaviour. So it's not caused by me and it must be clear what I am dealing with. I don't think he should have been discharged on Wednesday and I'm wondering what happened to the "planned discharge".
Anyway, nice bright day here, but still very windy, and I'm leaving my bin on its side, which is how it ended up yesterday after I brought it in from the road. I expect your geese are upset because they are being blown around, when they're used to being in control of their own movements.
🤗Sweetie
Lol the geese are bossy and demanding😂I feel ur partner needs to be in a home as he's almost dangerous to you and himself. I'm so disappointed that no one is helping you😕.
I've just had my best bed bath ever !!!!
Kat was thorough and she managed to relax me briefly.
She's also very funny.
Unfortunately all my tender point's have kicked off🙄🙄🙄😒😒😒😖.
I've cried so much today. And other things that can't be discussed on here.
My poor head but your poor back.
I like the writer you watched. Brain fog🙄🙄
Hugs sweetie🤗🤗🤗🤗🤔🤔🤔🤗🤗🤗🤗
It was "The Mist" - not "The Fog". The music was amazing for setting the scene or emotional expectations.
So glad your new carer is good. I couldn't imagine having a bed bath, but if that's your bag ..... well ok. I can manage to shower myself and if I can be bothered to get the cushion blown up, I can have a bath, but I haven't tried for ages because there's just too much going on.
What kind of help do you think I need? The danger from my partner is emotional. But I know it is intentional and what he says is not true, so he can try but I cannot be put down. I feel that a convalescent home would be ideal for getting him into the between stage of being dressed most of the time, moving around more normally, staying awake longer and generally being more normal without the trappings of home and actually being at home. When I spoke to Carers1st yesterday they lost patience with me because I couldn't tell them what I needed, though I had an assessment a few weeks ago, and I can't remember who did it, and they said immediately - "oh you need help, yourself!" because I was on two sticks. I'm not on sticks the whole time because I forget about them when I need two hands and leave them in the kitchen - things like that, but then, it can be better if I can try to get upright and walk around. It's the bending and lifting I need help with, but carer-timing would be so random.
I'm so sorry you have been feeling so emotional. You cry, and yet you are so empathetic and kind to other people. I got so much help from having myofascial massage; thinking back, that is probably the real reason I don't feel I suffer from fibromyalgia now. It was well worth the money and the driving.
Hugs to you too, Dawn - gentle ones.
Sweetie 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Omg the end is heart breaking. The dead can dance - what a fantastic voice. Can't listen to it without crying.I struggle considerably with washing myself and have for about ten years. Can't get in the bath and can't shower as I don't have strength to wash or dry myself so carer it is lol.
I'm having to 're learn having clean clothes. Initially it was due severe depression which is still quite bad but having no hair is a kind of self harm.
Now it is that and saving money. Phew that was a heart buster😣.
It's sunny and bright 🌞.
We're at the dentist on Friday morning eep.
Oh I've never heard of any type of cure. But I'm so happy it's gone for you sweetie hugs 🤗🤗🤗🙃Dawn 🤗🤗🤗
There is no known cure for FM but I am better. It could be for another reason that I am better, of course.
Is that the name of the music?
I'm so glad you're better from Fibro😊😊😊🤗🤗🤗.Yes .the band is the dead can dance 💃. Jon absolutely loves it. It's just so moving❤😢.
I love it too but privately.
Hope you're ok sweetie 🤗🤗🤗🤗gentle hugs 🤗
I must Google that. Thanks Dawn, I'm better than yesterday.🤗🤗🤗
Hi sweetie.Jon watched it on YouTube. He watches it when I'm in bed lol.
I went to bed at 6pm last night.
I think my new blood pressure meds are making me feel weaker. Amlopidine ?
We're having chop sweet potato cauliflower and gravy for tea😋
Ok sweetie it's time to go. Jon's putting clean bedding on my bed yey. I'm so spoilt and that makes me feel bad for you.
Hugs sweetie🤗🤗🤗❤🤗🤗🤗
Chopped sweet potato and cauliflower - that's a thought 🤔🤔
A pork chop lol. Roasted sweet potato is delicious 😋.Anyway. If ur at Court tomorrow, good luck sweetie hugs 🤗Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗
Thanks Dawn. I had a phone call from the Claimant today. Surely he shouldn't be contacting me. I think he wants to avoid having to travel from Scarborough and says if I pay him the money he will withdraw the claim. A bit desperate, me thinks. He should leave me alone.😒😒🙂🙂
Omg that's seriously out of order !!!!!😑Yes desperate!.
You deserve ur day in court just in case you win!!!!
That's what he's afraid of the winker.
Grrr.
Jon is making home made pizzas for tea 😋 and how the ingredients have shrunk......shrinkflation.
How are you doing in yourself sweetie ?🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😇🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Home made pizzas! Your Jon sounds like a treasure.🤗I'm having sweet potato and cauliflower tonight with onion and a vegetarian meat ball or two. I'll most likely add some spices or a spicy sauce.
Yes, I think it's out of order, and assumed it was legally out of order but they company have bothered me so much that I'm wondering whether it matters in a civil case. I cut him off when he was making the same old offer "if you pay now you will avoid paying costs." I deserve my day in court for all the hard work I have put in to the defence.
Did my research and found that the music that ends The Mist is called The Host of Seraphim and the singer is singing in tongues, so people of all faiths can make of it what they can, but it is meant to be a sort of bridge between earth and heaven.
I'm not too bad, thank you. I got my clothes sorted out yesterday evening, i.e. put away in drawers (crammed) and so far today I have got a choice of tops and jackets, but the effort of getting everything out made me feel sick, particularly looking for a hair grip because my amazing pixie cut is now well onto my shoulders. I'll have to make a sandwich for tomorrow because I have to be there at 1.30 and I have to prepare for hunger at some point, though I'm so glad I'm not diabetic like John.
So far today I haven't really achieved much but I did give myself a facemask and then put that lovely pink oil on my skin. It feels so good. I do look after my skin but this morning was a special treatment. I want to look my best tomorrow. I believe that if you make an effort people can see that and they look more kindly on you. I'm still feeling a bit shaky with the anxiety but it's not as bad as Monday. How are you today? You sound bright, but then you always do. Of course, the ability to smile through pain means that people think there's nothing wrong. But I thank heavens that while I may be many years older than you, my disability is nothing compared to yours. Don't be surprised if you don't hear from me for a while😊xx Sweetie 🤗🤗
Hi sweetie. Hugs🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😍🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗And fingers crossed!!!!! 🤗
I've got face ache, well whole head and shoulders.
My mother used to call me face ache as a kid🙄
I'm hoping and praying you win😃🤗
Take care ❤🤗🤗,sweetie hugs 🤗Dawn 🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, Hugs back 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. I hope you are feeling better by now; so sorry you've had this face-ache to contend with. My mum used to call someone face-ache but I don't think it was me; I think it was the cat LOL.
Well, I didn't lose. could tell the judge didn't like the claimant. He rambled on inarticulately while I kept my mouth shut, mostly only speaking when spoken to. I chose for it to go back to mediation, which I missed the last time because the phone didn't ring. The judge said Mediation has its glitches sometimes. The claimant wasn't happy because if mediation doesn't settle it, we'll be back in court again.🙂
Lol, I bet you really peed him off, ur a genious!!!!!!🤗Spelled it wrong lol. No I have head and face ache eye ache.
Jon and I chatted about my napping habits.
I've been doing it all my life weird. My ex hated me napping the twit.
I've spent my life exhausted.
I'm so glad you got a nice judge🤗🤗🤗😀
Do you think the twit will contact you again ?
How are you feeling after court ?
Was up at 5.30 am cos Burtina makes so much noise but burt hardly makes a sound lol.
The chick is fattening up awww so cute.
Right dentist at 10.45. I need painkillers and a nap 😌.
Thinking of you sweetie hugs 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Dawn 🤗
Hi Dawn, I hope you feel better after the dentist, not worse; at least that's over now and it can only get better. Perhaps that was the cause of your face/eye/head ache.
I didn't say the judge was nice; I think she was too bored to make a decision LOL! I suppose the job doesn't allow them to be "nice". The twit doesn't want to come back to this court (it's a long way) and it was me that chose mediation in about 2 - 3 months. He wanted to fight it out on the spot (outside the court room)! In mediation I could make an offer to him and there would be a legal eagle on the phone who, presumably, could decide what is fair, which is all I want. There was a few hundred pounds that he claimed to have saved us but when I questioned how he had done it, he admitted that the timeshare resort had absorbed it. So I'm not going to offer him that. I thought about their hourly rate of £50 plus his train fair yesterday. He might well contact me again. I'm not a genius; probably have more experience of the legals than the twit has because he's oh so good🤥. One of the things that has to happen is that he's got to apply to the court again, to have my name on the Claim because the judge recognised that while I was only representing John yesterday, I am intrinsically linked with him. Actually his name wasn't even on the Claim form; he was entered as "MR NOT KNOWN ..." In other words, whoever filled in the form couldn't be bothered to find out what his first name was. I would have expected it to be thrown out for that reason alone. I would like to have been a fly on the wall when he got home last night! It took me a long time to fall asleep last night because I was still full of cortisol and all those zingy hormones. Horrible. Today I feel better, but as we have to exchange all that bumf again, I'm going to have to put my new defence in (which didn't get read yesterday because the judge had familiarised herself already with the case). The new defence will include one or two new items of evidence. I wonder whether Mediation will have had a chance to see all of that before the phone call.
Hope you have a nice nap; perhaps you should wear ear plugs at night cos those geese are too noisy at that time in the morning.😴😴😴 Take it easy for the rest of the day.🙂
Lol I did have earplugs in last night cos of the air force base had planes going above us🙄😒.If the middle East send nukes we go up quickly lol.
Well done making him wait ! 🤗.
Greedy forker😜. They didn't even know your partner's name to write it down. I'm shocked 😲
Screw them till ur ready😉
Hope you're having a good day 😊🤗.
I used my walker to get to dentist from the car. Wow was it difficult but I'm pleased with myself😁.
So I'm in a lot of pain.
Still pleased lol.
Have a warm afternoon sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗
Just rest, Dawn with or without earplugs! Don't mention zee war!🙃🙃
Sorry sweetie 🙂🤗.I slept a couple of hours earlier and I'm dozing again lol.
Jon is making one of favs for tea. Chipotle chilli. So yummy 😋😋😋 as long as it isn't too hot 🔥lol
You also rest up sweetie hugs dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗
I am resting on my computer, just wasting time really but I'm feeling guilty; I haven't even phoned the hospital yet.
Just come off the phone with "Loved Ones" and the blood sugars are not being controlled and they won't discharge my partner until they are stable. He's also telling them the usual lies about how he manages his diabetes at home - like I check the units and he injects. No, he does it all but in that case we don't know if he is going by the number of clicks (can he hear them?) or by the dial (can he see the numbers on it?) So I'll ring the ward at the weekend and see if he wants to see me. I want to see him but weekends are terrible for parking. Which reminds me - I'm supposed to be getting blue badges but they haven't arrived yet and I can't keep using his badges, even if I am visiting him. Hey ho. I'll ask the ward staff whether he has discovered he has his phone with him or whether it is still in his bag. As I say, hey ho. I want to see him but I don't want to be unwelcome.
Dementia ?Did you see what Sunak did yesterday😭😢😭🤕😦😵. My claims mainly for mental health problems.
Poor people😢😓.
Hopefully the hospital will encourage him to see you!🤗
I've been trying to think what I could do as a job
Nothing!😫
I hope he sees you sweetie hugs 🤗🤗🤗🙃Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, I didn't take much notice of what the government are planning to do. I just thought that there are probably quite a lot of people who are claiming to have mental problems who could actually be at work. I had some mental problems at work back in the days, but you just have to carry on, or see the doctor for beta blockers or something. We all need a bit of help from time to time. They cannot force people back to work who haven't even got jobs to go back to, and perhaps they could do something about the diabolically low wages some people are working for so that the benefit system doesn't work as an alternative/better income.
What could you do as a job? What gives you pleasure? You could turn that into a job, maybe, but I suspect you couldn't do half a day without pain forcing you to go home.
I've phoned the ward and John is asleep, so I asked the nurse to ask him when he wakes up if he wants to see me, and I will phone again tomorrow.
I just bought some BB cream online; I don't wear makeup unless I have somewhere special to go, and it's light but when you put it on, it's supposed to adapt to your skin tone, but it was too tan and also showed up wrinkles I didn't know I had. I've found a lighter shade and ordered that, because I like that the texture is really nice and light. So I'll just have to wait and see what Amazon send me. Everything on the market at the moment seems aimed at Asian skintones. Amazon sent me an electric toothbrush and all the trimmings yesterday, when what I ordered was an eyebrow brush LOL! That hasn't happened before. I only bought myself a new replacement fairly recently but this one looks to be a higher end product. That's off the subject a bit, isn't it? I've got a physio appointment on Tuesday and after that I plan to go and get my eyebrows done because they're straggly and sparse and I thought I'd treat myself; I already did the sensitivity test weeks ago. My hairdresser has recently lost her husband, so I am waiting for her to come back to work. My pixie cut is now on my shoulders!
Sorry she lost her husband😕.I've got whole body neuropathy. Bizarre feeling..I'm still bald as a coot😏.
I hope your partner want s to see you soon !🤗
Sounds like you got a bargain sweetie 🙂🤗lol
As for work can barely. Can't concentrate very long. BB creams are hard to match up.
Jon is cooking. Steak mash and peas 😋.
God I'm all over the place sorry sweetie.
I'm so tired.
I've never faked any illness for benefits, never known anyone who did.
My carer gave me a good scrubbing today yey 😁.
Yes I'm knackered day and night lately and too much pain grrr
Hope you're ok sweetie hugs Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Dear Dawn,
Sounds like you need your bed soon. Whole body neuropathy! I can't imagine having that feeling in my feet all over my body! Do you have a wig or do you have nice scarves or caps, and why have you lost your hair? I have never faked illness either, but I have never had benefits while working; I didn't mean you to read into what I wrote as saying you were faking it - far from it! But I have met people who have never worked in their lives; they may have a disability but they could do something to help themselves. Actually, not faking it, but exaggerating illness. I'm watching Michael Palin, and there are no benefits in Nigeria; everyone has to take care of themselves. I'm not saying that's better by any means, but there is a feeling of entitlement that some people seem to have, though I have not known many - I have always worked in one field or another, but those were the days when people didn't take time off for anything less than a bad dose of flu, which only lasted a few days, or if you were hospitalised.
I'm not too bad, thanks. I've just been chatting to people on line most of the day! So have a really good restorative sleep, and I hope you are less exhausted by tomorrow.
Tomorrow is my relaxing day but I may have to drive up to the hospital - if he wants me that is.
So good night, Dawn and John,
xx Sweetie🤗🤗🤗
Hi sweetie 😀🤗🤗🤗.Initially I shaved my head as a form of self harm but now I prefer it and save money 💰😂😂😂🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗.
I'm feeling very sick meh.
I used to have a long Bob dyed black.
Been up since 5am and the day is dragging.
Oooow 7 more chicks yey just adorable😍😍😍
Brain fog🙄 I'm trying to stay awake. I know I'm talking sheet. It's been really bad lately.
I could barely walk today I was seized all over and still have the neuropathy in most places. That's good news as it's less than yesterday.
How's your partner doing?
Hopefully actually I need to check my blood sugars. I'm so bad at doing it.
I didn't work in fields but I had a cleaning job age 12. Then school. And helped at the rspca cleaning dog poop lol.
How are you doing sweetie ?
Jon is airing the house. He drank a lot last night. He's a nice boozer.
I was in care from 12 years old till 18.
All secure units for my safety as my family were nuts.
It's sunny 🌞 here.
I wish it wasn't as bright as it is.
Enjoy your good day sweetie hugs 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, so you didn't lose your hair - you ditched it! Not many people can look good without hair😀😊😊. You have had a long day! I supposed you had to get up early as sometimes lying down can cause pain and you need to move.
So another pair of geese has had babies, your garden must be a bit full of them. I
I didn't have a particularly good night - elbows hurting however I lay but unlike you, I didn't get up until 9.0, had my weekly medicine and my cooked breakfast and now I'm too tired to go to the hospital; I've been asleep in my chair.
You didn't have a very happy childhood, did you? I don't suppose any of that helped you to not have FM, but you had active - if not inspiring - jobs as a youngster that might have contributed to it now. Nobody can say how it starts - usually. Are you diabetic? you mention that you should test your blood sugars. John absolutely has to because he is a brittle Type 1.
It's sunny here too, with some dark clouds. But I'm so tired, and not sure why. Perhaps it's just my Sunday routine, but I nearly forgot my Alendronic Acid and it set me back half an hour.
I think I'll just slob it out today; it's bad enough having a partner who doesn't get it, without me wondering why I can't do things. Tomorrow is another day.🤗🤗🤗😊😊
Hi sweetie 🙂🤗🤗,I'm type 2 diabetes and inject insulin. I'm so glad I don't have it like ur partner !!!
You've had a hard stressful week sweetie and ur still under stress. Hugs . Give yourself a break !🤗
I did my seated exercises this morning but now I can barely move. And weakness has set in.
Jon is playing 🎸.
I've spread Synalar steroid cream all over my left leg and ears to ease worst of the burning.
I'll give you extra hugs 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
And hope you get to sleep tonight 😵 lol
More hugs for being awesome 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗
Dawn 🤗
Hooo ho, Dawn, Awesome! I think that's you! But really - thank you for the way you are supporting me. I suppose I can't expect to overcome stress as quickly as I might have done once before, but if John has been expecting me, he won't understand. I've joined the club of people who wake up in the morning and cortisol starts to rage round the body with no encouragement at all.
When you do your seated exercises, perhaps you should do less of them somehow, because they're supposed to help you but it seems that every day you're suffering after you've done them.
I've never heard of Synalar cream. My feet burn after I've put socks on when I get into bed and I have to pull them off quickly before I sleep,and I also now get cramps. My GP said the Pregabalin could help with the 😊😊but it doesn't. Luckily the neuropathy is just uncomfortable and I only get the occasional stabbing pain.
Is Jon a great guitar player?
Thank you for the extra hugs. I hug you back🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
I'm sorry ur elbow was so painful. Let's hope it improved before bed. I'll have to look up alendronic acid lol. Oow does it help? I hope soJon's mum has arthritis and begging to go back on steroids.
We're having a turkey leg between us for tea 😋mash and broad beans n gravy. Not that keen on Turkey but Jon loved it lol.
Hope you rested and chilled hugs sweetie 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Dawn 🤗🤗?
I am feeling more rested, thanks. Alendronic Acid is supposed to provide more strength to the bones; I take vitamin D and calcium too, so it's assumed that I have osteoporosis and that's the root cause of my fractures. I see the physio tomorrow (not Tuesday as I thought), so I shall phone the hospital in the morning and then (probably) continue on from the physio in Sudbury on to Bury. I don't take anything for arthritis as I can cope with the pain I get now. My elbows were stiff this morning and once I got up the pain went, so that's not a big thing, just a sleep-disturber. Hope you're feeling better.🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Sweetie 😀😀
Oh I hope physio goes well sweetie 🙂🤗 .Aww Jon's just fed the geese and chicks😍
How often do you go to physio ?
I do my physio every morning with YouTube😉
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Is it easy ish for you even with your poorly back?
I'm sorry ur suffering 😢.
Yes Jon plays all types of guitar but he's practicing
Classical these days.
I'm very weak and wobbly on my feet. And so tired. It's never ending these days. Moan over lol
Back to brain fog 😑ggggggggrrrrrrrr😠🤕
I'm considering reducing the Gabapentin as all it does not really working like I expected it to.
You rest up sweetie hugs dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Hi Dawn, I slept better last night (eventually) but I woke up too early, so I had a second sleep and got up at 10.30. We'll see how the day goes. I was going to see the physio about every two or three weeks, but I do know that the series of sessions will not last long, and I think the exercises shown on YouTube are just as good. It's just having someone to ask how you are that makes the dfference. I had to stop going before my series of sessions ended because I had another compression fracture and could barely move. The appointment today is the first one for about three months. This latest fracture seems much worse than the others. I know I always feel that, but I think there is something about the position of it and the fact that I am bent over that make it seem more serious.
I love classical guitar - I am a classical violinist myself. Is it nice for you to listen to practising or is it not so good?
I increased by Pregabilin by 50 mg last night. I had reduced it, and found that my jerks and shakes decreased considerably after about six weeks, so with that question answered, I got back onto my last dose in the hope that my sleep would be better. I haven't done any exercises recently; there just hasn't been the time and energy, but now the court hearing is over, I ought to be able to get down to it. I am worried about the amount of time I spend chatting online because it keeps me in a seated position for too long. The doctor I saw in N. Cyprus said that sitting was the worst thing I could do when compared to walking and lying down.🤗🤗🤗
I know. I've had that lecture off the Gp lol.I love my recliner but struggle to breathe if I'm too far back and my breathing is bad today meh.
How are you doing sweetie?🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Oh you poor thing sweetie extra gentle hugs🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😃😊😀😁🙂
I hope you get to rest up sweetie hugs Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗😴
Oh Dawn, how can you "you poor thing" me when you yourself are in a much, much worse state than I am.🤗🤗🤗
Ah sweetie it's all relative. It bothers me a lot that you're in any pain. 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😁😁😁😃😃😃😍🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗Jon is in a meeting. At the back of the room.
I wish I'd heard you play violin 🎻. It's a beautiful instrument.
Jon plays guitar very well. He had lessons as a kid
But hiS mother stopped them when she realised he wanted a job at it. She wanted him to be a plumber or the like.
Of course Jon did a PhD in nuclear chemistry😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😆😆😆😆😆😆😆😇😇😇.
I hope you sleep well tonight.
My brain is flatlining🙄. I've slept most of the day.
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Well, we can't always turn what we love into a job, and being a plumber is quite a good way of earning a living if the knees can stand it. But what a shame Jon was prevented from continuing his guitar studies.
So I went up to the hospital this afternoon after my physio appointment, and what a difference! He was certainly a bit confused, but his attitude was much better and he could hear me! Occasionally he misunderstood what I said but he admitted that he could hear me perfectly well, even though he sometimes thought I was speaking when it was in fact another visitor at the end of the bay. My brain flatlined a few times while I was there, unsurprisingly. I could see that he relies quite heavily on whoever is around and just before I left, he was strangely eating his main course at the same time as the soup (he was using a spoon for everything - a good solution for a blind person).
Oh sweetie that's good news. I'm so glad you saw him. How do you feel about it ?I use a spoon to. Jon chops up all my food🙂
Waiting for a bed bath even though it is brrr cold meh😱.
It's like an invisible person is punching my butt back and my thighs ouch 😭🤗🤗🤗self hugs😉
How are you doing today?🤗.
I hope you're ok and having a good morning?
We're you meant to be doing something today?
Are you visiting John today ?
I wish you both well sweetie 😀🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
I am happy that he is friendly now, which is the result of getting the blood sugar a bit more under control; it's now only going low and he had a hypo early this morning. That's normal for John. I have a background worry that when he gets home it will go out of control again but I think they are also looking for triggers. I am glad that they are taking notice of the information I have given the "Loved Ones" nurse on the telephone. His confusion is a worry, too and I don't know if that will improve. I have been able to put him in the picture about what has been happening to him and to our life outside the hospital, as his memory has let him down and I think his blood sugar drops is responsible for that. He didn't know who I was at first and told me that his daughters were the most important thing in his life. When he realised who I was he downplayed that by talking about how I had texted them and saying he needed to change his will. I think that is dangerous territory, and more important at the moment is getting Lasting Power of Attorney done for both of us. It's not that difficult but we have both been putting it off. Easy for him because he has me, but who have I got? I wouldn't want to put that responsiblity on my cousin, who lives miles away on the south coast.
So feeling quite positive but I won't know what life will be like until we try it. He has a lovely young doctor who is doing his best for him.
I've been in a lot of pain today and I don't know whether it's because of the very small amount of exercises I did at physio or the chair that I sat in by John's bed. You had to have long thighs to be able to use the backrest. I don't know, I might be in pain but perhaps it was good for me. The pain is wearing off now.
I have nothing pressing to do today but I'm feeling a little sick and have not had breakfast. It's cold today. So no, I'm not going out at all.
How are you today, Dawn?
Hi sweetie 😀🤗. What good news about John but id feel apprehensive. But you know what is going on.Get some food in to you!!!🤗
My Jon is in a foul mood. And I'm very upset and 😢. Someone has seriously injured our male swan
Demon. I'm fact I think he's been shot through the head. He's alive but struggling😭😭😭😭 how could anyone do that ? We phoned the RSPCA but they have not been out yet.
He's on our back lawn. Fingers crossed for him.
I wouldn't know where to start will wise.
I'm sorry ur in pain 😢 I hope it passes soon sweetie.
I'm in tons of pain and I deserve a piece of chocolate 🍫😉..
I did my 10 min exercises but struggled so bad 👎not happy with myself.
Had a good bed bath😁 but am so cold.
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗
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It is bitingly cold today. I've got a warm sweater on with a layer on underneath, and I don't remember buying this sweater! Not at all. I must have got it from a charity shop as the label has been cut. I need to be slimmer but it is very nice. I have just turned the heater on. It's an air conditioner (heat pump) and has just begun to blow out warm rather than cold air. I'm going to have a smoothie and seek out my physio's email. My next appointment is next month.
I've just had my cappuccino treat; it always gives me a bit of a boost and it's so delicious.
I'm so sorry to hear about the swan! I can't understand the mentality of people who harm them. I do hope the RSPCA have arrived by now and that they can do something for him. If he is still alive, that is horrible, but it gives hope that he can be helped.
Wills. We made mirror wills years ago; I've looked at mine and most of it is no longer relevant, so I will have to change it. I don't think John's daughters will care if they don't benefit from his will as they are apparently doing very well and flaunt it in front of us. When we were struggling financially, I remember feeling very "sick" at the way they would do that. I wish we had a more welcoming home ie one where we could put people up when they visit, or even have somewhere comfortable to sit.
Going to make my smoothie now. Hugs from Sweetie 🤗🤗🤗
Glad you had Ur coffee😋😋.Enjoy your smoothie😊 sweetie🤗.
Family can be downright selfish when it comes to money. I don't have any lol but any left is for Hazel and Jon.
The RSPCA just rang. Looks like Demon was shot more than once. He's standing up so fingers crossed they can either help or gently put him to sleep cos of he goes into the lake it'll be a slow painful death.
Deva keeps coming over distraught. She's his wife. I'm worried about her eggs.
The geese are ganging up on Demon.
I'm exhausted with stress got palpitations and tears 😢.
How are your stress levels sweetie?🤗
I hope you're ok 👌😇
It's been a day🙁
The RSPCA will be out in an hour. I hope they can help Demon.🤗🤗🤗
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
I hope they take Demon away if he is being attacked by the geese. I can well understand how you must be feeling with that going on close to your propertyl
My stress levels are low and I've already fallen asleep. It's not been much of a day for me but at least the sky is blue.
🤗🤗Hugs to you, Dawn🤗🤗🤗
Hi sweetie 🙂,Hope you had a good night's rest🤗🤗🤗
Demon was caught easily and taken to tiggywinkles hospital🤗🙂🤗.
I've only just got up 😯. It looks like poor Demon was attacked by a dog🤒🙁😭. I didn't get to see him before he left but Jon did. He had injuries other than his head and neck.
Jon will ring them at lunch time.
Or I will.
I really hope he's going to be ok.
Hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Good morning Dawn, Great night's sleep. Got up just before 10.0. Getting to sleep takes ages but once I'm asleep, I think I go through the whole sleep cycle that everyone is supposed to get.
I am so pleased the RSPCA took Demon away. He was lucky to survive a dog attack. We have lost hens to neighbours dogs - they are so fragile, and when we were flooded and had to rent, a fox got one our landlady's Ayelsbury ducks and it fled to the pond and unfortunately, drowned. It was so sad; her neck was broken so she couldn't lift her head out of the water. Fingers crossed they will be able to heal Demon's wounds and keep her until he can fend for himself.
Hugs to Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 from Sweetie
Dogs need socialising with more than other dogs.My dogs never chased ducks at the canal too busy chasing sticks lol.
Sorry about the duck🤗. We get about 30 ducks come for seed most days they go to next door too lol. So funny and cheeky.
I truly hope demon will be ok and Diva she's pining and looking for him😢
I can't wait to see them meet up again 🤗.
Glad you slept sweetie.
I was awake til about 5 am n slept through to 9 am🙄 apparently our female Egyptian goose make quite the noise and I slept thro it. The neighbours won't be happy as soon as she makes a noise I feed them oops.
What are today's plan's ?🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗
The dog should have been on a lead if it goes for the big birds. You are right about socialising them. Our cats never bothered the ducks but they are not dogs!
Aww. My old cat 🐱 🤗 Seamus used to beat up our dogs and try to boink them. Even when we had his nuts off. Seamus was also a master ratter. We'd find massive dead rats piled up🙄 took us a year to find out why I was paying a fortune in vets fees 🙄🙄🙄 as his face was swollen.
Shame I don't remember my feelings for him. Lost them in my coma.hu I lost a lot in that coma.
Sorry got carried away lol. Lunch time hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃🤗🤗🤗
Coma?
Yes was in icu in coma in 99. I've never been right since then. Septicaemia kidney failure pneumonia severe anaemia mrsa. That's enough of that😕.Had tuna mayo butty😋😍🤗 and now it's brew time😋😋😋😋😍😍😍😍😍🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗hugs sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃
Sorry, but I don't think you'd mentioned it before. Was it the kidney failure et al that caused it or were you in an accident? Sorry, it's your brew-time. I have to get on as well. I need to say that I need to contact my friends that have sent me Xmas cards and also, my laptop is playing off, so i may go off-line for a while.
Oh no u must have ur laptop sorted. Hugs sweetie I 'll miss you🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗😎😍😍😍😃😊
I suspect Microsoft are messing around and I'll have to agree to a few things but I haven't got all day.🙂🙃🙂🤗🤗
Lol. Is it a huge update ?Js just had his teeth polished ouch.
Yey demon is in quarantine due to bird flu. 14 days eep. Diva will be devastated waiting that long. He doesn't have have bird flu.
I'm really missing him😢🤗
Hope you get the laptop sorted hugs 🤗🤗Dawn 🤗🤗🤗🙃
Hi sweetie 🙂🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗. Hope you're laptop is fixed soon.It's 9.10 am and I'm absolutely knackered😴😴😴😴😴😴😴 can't manage much today hugs 🤗🤗Dawn 😍🤗
The monster went to hospital because he is a diabetes type 1 sufferer, and he got high and became confused, which lead him to become abusive and controling. He kept me up after I had gone to bed, asking me where the bathroom was (we live in a small 2b cottage where the bathroom is just a couple of steps across the landing. There is no support. I have no family and Carers1st said they didn't do things like that (i.e. go to court with me and help me physically).
Wow just wow.Did he do it to himself?
I hope not.
Why are you the one holding everything together?
I can understand the court but but you need significant help sweetie!
What a shippy world we live in that the bus and social service won't arrange help. Are you getting the correct benefits ?
I hope so 🤗.
I need to find my blanket brrr.
Hugs sweetie🤗🤗🤗🤗😊
No, not high as in kite! High blood sugar. He used to go low a lot and I would wake in the night and have to get him something sweet to eat. Nowadays, it can go either way but high blood sugar seems to be more dangerous and certainly his abuse seems to be going on and on over days and weeks. I am the only one holding it together because his five daughters live no closer than an hour's drive from London and they all have high flying jobs except for the eldest, who is very ill and lives in Scotland. None seem interested. Two of them are also diabetic Type 1. It's a horrible disease.
I was so stressed that I was unable to articulate what help I needed from Carers1st. I'm not really sure what they offer other than referring one to groups of people who can meet up, which is fine for when life is relatively smoothe. I'll ring them again; surely they can do something to help! I'm getting Attendance Allowance that has been reduced and I have to phone them and try and get it put back up again because although there is no-one to help me get up in the night, I do have my walking sticks, and I use them. Carers Allowance - Ha ha. I get a small teachers' pension, so on top of my State Pension, my income is just too high. And guess what? they made me go through all the dates John had been in hospital (that I hadn't recorded - why would I?) - took me hours to fill up the form, probably days and THEN they told me my income was too high! In those days caring was just being there and being woken in the night sometimes, having broken sleep while waiting for an ambulance to get here, because he never requested an ambulance during the day time. But now, it's a different kettle of fish. I don't need much.
You need a blanket; have you eaten yet? I have to get myself something to eat. I had toast with cheese at lunch time because I was busy but don't know what to have now. I hope your nicely snuggled in. I must close that bedroom window that's open a crack. Keep warm!🤗🤗 Thanks ❤️
I'm soooo jealous Dawn,
All I get at my back door are the local rats, Then I let the girls out!!🐀🐀🐀🐀🐕🐕
Hope your having a good weekend 😊
Hi sweetie 🙂,I make friends with all animals lol.
I slept all yesterday and today is going much the same. I'm only up as I'm to interview a new carer. Wish me luck🙏🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Good morning Dawn and of course GOOD LUCK,
I wish I could sleep ' totally out of action now Grrrr, I swear someones put a blood,,,,,,,,,y curse on me, walking by toes like a caterpillar🐛🐛🐛🐛 and so much pain,
I really do hope this next carer is the one for you😊😊🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻
She is the next carer😉😂😁😁😁😀😊🤗🤗🤗🤗.😫😫😫poor feet . My feet hurt the hotter it gets
You have my full sympathy sweetie Dawn 🤗🤗🤗.
Bed x
Sharing my garden with you all....
my 1st dose of amitriptyline
Body in constant flare like symptoms....
feel like I'm giving in
