Follow up consultation after bf

[Buisquits]

Good morning all.

Briefly

- 36 years old

- severe endometriosis,

- first natural cycle march 2018 - the boy is 3 now 💓

- natural pregnancy February 2020 - blighted ovum

- first FET July 2021, bff

After bff at the end of July I just came back from the follow up appointment. I feel very confident in my leading consultant. He questioned the thickness of my lining. It got to 8mm but was thin to start with and I had to had alerted my medication to get to 8mm. I didn't respond to hormones the way the expected. The consultant wants to know why and he offered hysteroscopy. He thinks my old scaring is spreading and affecting the lining. He hopes if he divides the scar tissue the womb will be ready to receive an embryo. While waiting for the procedure I'm going on prostap (!!!!).

I am happy with that, apart from prostap, but nothing I can do.

Now, as much as I want to give a sibling to my little boy, and have another little miracle, I started to feel like the whole process has massive impact on our life as a family. The medication makes me mental, unhappy, angry, with no sex drive. I am off meds at the moment and for the first time in 4 years I feel calm, focused and happy. I started wondering if going through another potentially negative FET is worth it? I feel like instead of living happily together, enjoying life, traveling, I plan everything around FET, and I miss out on life. Also, can I hope with another baby?

I know people here went through much more to get their miracle. We were extremely lucky with for first IVF working against the odds. But when do People decide to stop?