I'm stuck

[Sharkweek178]

Depression isn't like people think. It's not sadness. It's a weight. I don't feel like doing anything except eating and playing video games. I know exercise would help. But I can't get myself to do it. I know talking to loved ones would help. But I can't figure out how to make a call. I manage to start something and I can't continue for very long.

I don't really know what to do. I did therapy. I think I just figured out how to say what the doctor wanted to hear. I'm taking Zoloft. If I take more than what I'm taking now, then I just want to sleep all the time. I feel like the answers are in reach; self care, connecting with people; but the depression is keeping me from doing them.

[mosti001]

I'm 33 and have just recently started to accept my depression and uncover what it means to me and how it has affected me. I always thought depression was just being sad all the time and so I guess I never considered myself depressed. Because I did not "feel" depressed I did not share any of my thoughts with friends or family which was bad but I think the worst thing was lying to myself. I was eating and smoking myself to death staying in my room all day and night but because I didn't feel "sad" I wasn't depressed. I was able to do quite well keeping it all in by saying and doing the right things as I said but it did eventually catch up with me. It just takes admitting to yourself that there is more to you than you thought and feeling safe to open up with yourself first and then with those you can trust. I have learned in this process that there are many I used to trust that I can no longer trust but I have also learned that every single person is flawed in one way or another. The more I shared and opened up while hard and scary also allowed me to get to know sides of people I did not know about and realize that we all have our traumas and issues but they do no good to us locked up inside.

[Hidden]

Man I feel ya. Brand new here. Have been thru a ton of depression, trying many different solutions for relief. How it feels, no one can have a clue unless one has had it, which we wouldn't wish on anyone.

For me its all about finding the right answer with the meds first, then everything to support that. Without that type of relief and connecting ours wires, nothing has suffienctly worked for me. Took me waaay to long to find answers .Looking back that's on me. too passive. Ignorance. Docs not aggressive enough. Everything with me is in a BIG way and so is my depression, anxiety, mania, ruminations and lo self esteem.

SCARY to try diierent meds cause of side affects. I failed me there. Needed to be braver.

I finally have found my correct cocktail mix and feel damn good. i ll never be totally pain free but dude it is out there for you also

RELIEF!!

Keep trying new things, no matter what, don't accept anything but acceptable relief.

if you believe. pray like never before for direction., For the correct docs and relief. Give yourself to him like never before.

Brother, like I said nothing in a small way here. . Have had a rare 5 year manic esposide followed by an ungodly 5 years of depression. got thru it. you can too.

learn from my mistakes

Be aggressive. BE BE AGRESSIVE. ok cheesy

find those answers

never give up!! kick it's ass!

much love

craig

[CLB1125]

That’s a good way to describe depression. I have to force myself to do the most basic tasks. I make myself do things by thinking about how my husband feels when I always say no when he asks me to do something with him.

[Stoic1]

Hello Sharkweek. I've been there just recently. You are taking steps now just by communicating your problem on this forum Incremental steps are best. Keep posting and engaging with us here. The other things will follow.