I'm at a loss and falling into depression

[Lookingforhope20100]

I feel like I'm falling down a hole my depression is at an all time high. I cry myself to sleep more nights then I care to admit. It's gotten to the point where I even wish something bad would happen to me (like a freak accident) and I would die, I can't help but feel like the world is better off without me in it, and to make matters worse I have fallen out of love with the man I'm supposed to spend the rest of my life with, he just isn't the man he used to be and I don't love or even like the man he became but I don't know what to say to him or how to tell him but I don't want to be stuck in a loveless marriage. I'm just really getting tired of the same stuff different day crap. It's hard to find joy in anything.

[Brokenbeardedbear]

Hi, Im really sorry to hear you are suffering right now. Dont be ashamed of crying at night. We all need to do that sometimes. I really hope things improve and you find love between you and your husband.

[JkBauer]

Good evening,

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for declares the LORD, plans to prosper and not to harm to give you hope and a future.

You are very important and special, do not let anyone tell you different! It sounds like it is time to break free of this broken relationship. Have you thought about going to church and getting involved in it? If you are interested in it, my recommendation is to find a nondenominational church near you. Introduce yourself to the pastor and others around you. See if they have a bible study or counseling group that you can get involved in. Pray! Pray and talk to God ask for His help, ask Him for His guidance and direction, and that He will give you peace amongst the storm that you are going through right now.

You have got this!

God bless you!